There are no town lights to ruin the night sky in Lost Prairie, so the stars always seem so close. I love it here. This is mostly for Myra and Deb cuz they asked about it, and its always easier to tell stuff at night, no? When I have something serious to talk about with Mom or Dad I always wait till night. Somehow its easier then. And I want to tell this cuz it might make a difference to any young people who maybe just read here but don't post.
When I left here I was taken to Switzerland in my Grandmother's plane. I went to a clinic outside Bern that had a specialist in nerve damage. He couldn't help. After that I came back home and went to 4 other clinics with no results. Grandma sent her plane back to Kalipell to take me to Florida with her for a while. I wasn't very happy about anything right then, and I hadn't really noticed it, but I wasn't eating a lot at all. When I got back home my Mom commented on how thin I was looking, but I didn't think it was a big deal. I was slipping back into anorexia without realizing it, but Dad noticed. Then I got REALLY ill. My kidneys had begun to shut down. In fact I was damaging most of my internal organs cuz I just hadn't been eating. When I tried to really eat I just brought it back up again right away. I was hospitalized and had to go through dialysis three times, then I was put on heavy meds for my kidneys. It was close. Very close, but I didn't find out how close till I was out of the hospital. I was allowed to go on condition that I attended a health spa of some kind that specialized in diets. One of the really good ones is somewhere near Bad Nauheim in Germany, so.......... That's where I was taken. The head nurse in my section was Erika, and she was very kind and REALLY tough! I had to eat 16 meals a day! All tiny ones, but every half hour! Oof! Gemeuse! Gemeuse Salat! Gedunste Gemuese! Steamed! Boiled! Sauteed! Oof! I like vegetables, but by the time I left there I wasn't a big vegetable fan! And high protein drinks. Drink after drink after drink. I ate a lot of Fleischsalat on my own cuz I really like it. And boiled Celery root too. We never get that here in the US for some reason, but I love it! ANYway...... I did ok there and as soon as my weight was up to 120 I was allowed to do more excercise outside on the grounds, otherwise it was all on the equipment in a huge room. Now comes the really cool part. Erika's husband was a member of the shooting club and his specialty was......... SWISS RIFLES!! Wow ! I couldn't believe it, and he even had a really minty 1911sr rifle! You guys wouldn't know this, but my internet handle is 1911sr. I don't want to get into it all, but I was a Moderator on AssaultWeb.net in the Basics Forum for a long time, and then I moderated the Ladies Forum there too. My specialty is long range shooting with a 1911sr rifle and reloading and casting data. Oh well..... never mind. Its a long story anyway. So, Erika's husband was Gerhardt, and he offered to take me to his shooting club for the afternoon. Mom said ok, so we went the next day. We went earlier than the club opened so that I would have some privacy, but there were still about 12 people there, mostly guys but a few women too. When you shoot as a Swiss club you MUST use Swiss GP11 ammunition so that everyone is equal, no? Garhardt let me shoot for a while and then said that a few of the members would like to shoot with me. I'm not THAT dumb! He meant that those "few members" wanted to test the Ami reloading girl! I was getting tired, but I agreed.
There were 3 guys and one older lady going to shoot with me that all used 1911sr rifles. I was surprised cuz mostly people shoot the k31 over there, but I do love the 1911sr. The club had a 100 meter range that was open, so it wasn't going to be hard cuz I shoot at 300 meters at home. To make the story shorter, I didn't win. The lady was eliminated first, then two of the guys and that left me and and Gerhardt. There were new targets set up and I won the first 10 shot group, then Gerhardt won the second one. The third one was his and on the last one I was so tired I couldn't even group anything. I don't think I had enough body weight to be doing that anyway. I can only shoot the 1911sr prone cuz the rifle is 56" long and its too heavy for me to hold up shooting offhand.
Anyway, they had a wonderful luncheon in the clubhouse and everyone was SO so cool. Gerhardt told me that I was the only female (Weib ) that had ever outshot him in even a single group. So I was happy enough, and they were all so very kind to me. When I reached 125 I was allowed to come back home, and that was just a few days later.
I almost lost my life cuz I didn't want to admit I was anorexic, and I tried to hide it, and I sometimes faked eating my dinner. I was stupid, and I didn't listen to anyone about eating. Now its hard for me to keep weight on and I eat maybe 6 times a day in small amounts cuz its still hard to keep a big meal down. Don't do what I did. Listen to your parents. I love both of mine and I STILL didn't listen. I'm going to tell how I came to be back here in the next post. This one's getting sorta long, no?
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Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
For the past year I've been Moderating on the AW board. I've been confined to the house mostly anyway and I talked about mostly all fireams and reloading stuff, but I had made a promise to my Mom after the incident 3 or 4 years ago. I promised that if one more thing happened with stalkers or weirdos from the net, I'd leave the firearms boards permanently. I guess it was just a matter of time, no? One afternoon a few weeks ago (or maybe more? oof! I can't even remember now!) the phone rang in Lost Prairie. It was a guy looking for "that 1911sr girl that reloads". Guess who answered the phone?!?!? Mom. That was it. I kept my promise and I resigned and I've not gone back. And I won't. I won't break my word to my Mom. I didn't realize how easy it was to find our phone number. Cuz of our website I mean, and I hadn't even thought about that. And after hours the studio phone rings through to Lost Prairie cuz we do get calls from Arcitects right up till 5. Oof! Why are there SO many jerks in the world? It was really fun for me there, and now its all gone. But not EVERYthing is gone. I have you guys, no? If you can stand me that is. Sometimes I talk too much, no? Oh, well. I'm going out on the deck to look at the stars for a few minutes and then to bed. Nite guys! :^)
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Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Myra, this is a picture that Erika took of me when I got to the clinic. I look like a ghost, no? Oof! I don't think I was even 95 pounds then.
Posted by Doug Allan (Member # 2247) on :
welcome back Rosemary!
Your mishap with the wall of dishes was so heartbreaking to find out about & like Myra & so many others have said, you were always in the prayers of so many of us Letterheads.
Thanks for checking back in, & sharing a little bit of your story from your time away. Hope you'll be around more. Sorry to hear you have to step back from another favorite hangout on the net & miss out a little on conversing about your own "craft".
I know the food thing is serious stuff, but the photo still looks great to me...
I'll always remember your wedding reception decoration pics (the balloons & table settings, etc.) because they were posted just about when I was planning mine. Mine was much more simple, but the elegance that was put together (by your mom I think) was like an exterior image of the celebratory feeling we experienced in planning ours, & for that reason they are still buried in my own memory of that time & surface when you drop back in to post.
I have to agree... stars are great to have around Posted by Delzell (Member # 1965) on :
Rosemary,
I have been thinking about you. Glad to see you back. I am going to send you a long e-mail just as soon as I get some energy.
Debbie
Posted by KARYN BUSH (Member # 1948) on :
good to see you back and on a bike no less!! you go girl...hey but where was your helmet??? glad to see you are on track and looking great!
Posted by Dana Bowers (Member # 780) on :
Welcome back... me missed you... and your Dad, say HI to him!
Aren't Moms and Dads, the really cool ones, really great to have? Sometimes we don't see how very true it is, til we're 'older and wiser'.
I think stupid jerky people suck big time, and as much as I wish they would go away, they don't.
But you got alot of really cool caring people here to make up for it, ok? And lots of hugs from us to you!!
Posted by Jon Aston (Member # 1725) on :
Rosemary:
When I first began looking in on Letterville - before I got the courage to actually participate in the discussions - two of my favorite residents were you and your dad. I've missed seeing the two of you around town. It was nice to have Lat stop in for a short while but I guess he discovered it wasn't his thing.
Like Doug, I remember your storybook wedding fairly clearly and - like everyone who's been around since that time - remember reading of your accident and resulting condition with shock, disbelief, horror, sadness. I've thought of you often (you're a part of this place) and have been grateful for bits of news when they filtered in. It has been really nice to see you back and posting - and especially with the sort of enthusiasm that made you a town favorite in the first place. It certainly seems as though you've turned a corner.
As for the weirdos...the ones who can't seperate fantasy from reality are a legitimate concern. I would hate to see you have to stop posting again because one of them decides you're "the one for them". Hope you don't mind a few suggestions in this regard...Don't post too many pictures of yourself (even at your worst, you're still a stunning beauty) and change your signature to something less ambiguous (read from the perspective of a nutbar: "Hey...maybe I can be that man"). A reminder at the end of every post that you are "Happily married, armed and dangerous" (or something along those lines) should be enough to make even the most deluded nut think twice.
Please say "Hi" to your dad for us.
Posted by Si Allen (Member # 420) on :
I'll go a step past Jon's advice...you are in Montana...with 40 acres and a backhoe...why worry about stalkers ?
PS....glad to see you back again...and say "Hello!" to that old Geezer for me!
[ April 17, 2005, 10:30 AM: Message edited by: Si Allen ]
Posted by Kissymatina (Member # 2028) on :
Glad to see ya back. Hope it's not just a short visit, been missing ya around here.
Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Wow! You guys are So so cool! I thought maybe you wouldn't want me around cuz I talk too much. And I say stuff too quick and sometimes before I think it through. Oof! I wouldn't want to be married to me! Thank you, Doug. You guys are happy, no? I really hope you are. I've only seen pictures of Hawaii in Dad's old albums from when he was sailing merchant ships, but I was amazed at the flowers! Gorgeous! Hi Karen! My helmet was on the trailer cuz I had stopped for a drink when Mom told us all she wanted to take a picture, but I ALways wear it. And thank you, Dana. And you're right. Moms and Dads really ARE cool. I can't imagine life without them. The old "Doctor" is so lucky. You're such a beautiful Lady. I wish I had your hair. And DON'T tell me you'll send it to me!! I don't believe a word that he said about it being a wig!! (He's gonna get me, no?) Hi Jon! Thank you for thinking of me. Latigo just got too busy cuz Dad had given him the studio and he didn't have time to do the intenet thing. Lat is also a very private person and he said he felt weird being in a place where people knew me and Dad. The only thing he does on the internet is research ink and printer profiles now. Its funny how the guys who find or develop those profiles are so secretive, no? They won't share anything about profiles with anyone. Dad and Lat aren't like that. They share whatever they know with anyone who wants to know or learn. And thank you, Si. And I think you know I'm not afraid of stalkers anymore. Dad made sure I was taught and trained by the best we have here in our county Law Enforcement Departments. Some of the officers knew me from when I was just a baby and I've learned from them what I need to know to defend myself. Mom is the one who was frightened by this last dumbstuff. But I'll keep my word to her. The last thing I want is for her to worry about me, but I never go anywhere unarmed. It seems like the whole country has gotten more violent, no? I can't have children, but I don't like thinking about the kind of a world that will be waiting for Lat and Lizbeth's children. I'm going to make sure that Lost Prairie is the one place they can play and grow up safely. I hope Lizbeth doesn't mind if I appropriate her kids! She doesn't have any yet, but I'm patient! The sun is coming out so I'm going for a walk in the woods with Dad. Bye guys! Be back later.
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Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Oops! Thanks, Kissy! :^)
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Posted by Duncan Wilkie (Member # 132) on :
Thank you for sharing your story Rosemary. I'm so happy to see your presence here again. You have a unique spirit and grace that make this board better place to visit. Jon's words echo my thoughts though. I am the proud daddy of a spirited, bright and beautiful 25 year old daughter myself. It's a tragic world we live in when we have to dim the light to protect the flame. I'm happy you've come back to us and are sharing your thoughts with your friends here. Take care and continue to get better, no. Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Thank you for listening! Oof! I DO talk too much, no? Here's a picture I LOVE posting! I can't have kids, but I do have my Maddie May and she's just like one to me.
Isn't she just adorable?
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Posted by John Deaton III (Member # 925) on :
Im glad to hear you are doing better and hope you continue to do so Rosemary. Having a good family behind you is one heckuva good thing. Posted by Mark Yearwood (Member # 2723) on :
It's good to see you back here and glad you are feeling much better. It sounds like your family is very close and I'm sure that has been a blessing during your difficult times.
A bass playin' , gun shootin' girl...that's cool, too. (I'm a drummer) Good bass players are hard to find.
I enjoy seeing the work from your family's shop. That's some great carving.
Posted by Deb Fowler (Member # 1039) on :
Rosemary,
Keep up the good work, as you can probably outsmart yourself! Deb Fowler (luv ya)
Posted by Sheila Ferrell (Member # 3741) on :
Rosemary,
I have never met you yet but still enjoy your posts and appreciate your courage. It takes a lot to talk about personal failures, but it sounds as if you are also blessed to be able share your triumphs as well. You are a beautiful girl on the outside, but I think also on the inside too . . .
Every time you end a sentence with the question 'no?' it reminds me of a short blonde girl I went to high school with whose name also happened to be 'Rose'. She ALWAYS said that too... She had been raised in Peru where her father worked when she spent most of the 10th & 11th grade here skipping classes with me. One of our favorite sayings was 'GO for IT!' which we would shout at everyone & to each other all the time...
Due to other activities we shared, this is all I remember about her except for she was always smiling and had really blue eyes and thick black eyelashes......
I have a very beautiful daughter who is now 23, who once fought a battle with very poor self-esteem. Part of the reason for that was my ridiculous perfectionistic demands on her, and part of it was her father habitual abandoning. At least I admitted and apologized to her for my shortcomings.
She was (and is) ALWAYS being told how beautiful she was by everyone and as she got older I was leary of the way men stared at her, partly due to the fact that she was very innocent and very nice and polite to EVERYONE. She has overcome much of her niaveness due to living & working in a big metro area. She is happily married now and helping many other people in many ways through her church and her life, and has become a very wise young woman, much like you. I hope someday, she will allow me to mabey to send you some of her writing she did in college about her self-esteem.
Rosemary, I wish you all the best and more on your journey through life... Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Wow! That's a really great story. I like reading this kind of stuff. I get laughed at a lot cuz I talk like I write, and saying "no" at the end of a sentence is a habit I've had for as long as I can remember. Its sorta like saying "isn't that right?" after saying something. Oh, well. I'd LOVE to read some of her stuff. If you send me some things she wrote, I'll send you a copy of Lat's and my CD for her. Its sorta old time classic rock, but I'll put a copy of our Album, "Large Dog" in with it too. Low self esteem is something I know about. All through school I had no friends at all. Not one. I didn't understand till much later, but I thought I was ugly or too skinny or dumb or SOMEthing! Oof! Nobody would hang out with me. Much later I ran into a girl I knew and she was married and kinda dumpy looking. She told me how "great I still looked", and I asked her if I looked so great why wouldn't anyone hang out with me or want to be friends at school? She said it was cuz of the way I looked!! She said none of the girls trusted me cuz their boyfriends were always looking at me!! Can you believe that?!?!! If you look too good you get pushed aside just like you're not good enough! I didn't care. Well, I DID, but I had my Family, and because I had no friends I spent a lot of time with Dad in the reloading room and learned a lot about firearms and shooting. And now I don't know if that was good or bad, no? It was bad for a while cuz then none of the guys I knew wanted to ask me out cuz I could shoot better than they could!! oof!! I just couldn't win! And then Paul guy came along and he was the most shy person I ever met! I mean SUPER shy! 6'5" tall and as gentle as he can be. ANYway, I do know about low self esteem. I lived with it for a long time. And I'd love to read what she wrote.
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Posted by Sheila Ferrell (Member # 3741) on :
Rosemary, I usually talk to her 2 or 3 times a week so I will ask her.
Also, forgot to mention that is the CUTEST dog. That's the exact kind we wanted to get my youngest daughter recently (I forget what they are called) We just call it 'the dog from 'Men In Black' movie (lol) (Anyway, we could'nt find one and her Chiuahauha mix came along)...
Cute name for her too!!! Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Maddie is a Pug!
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Posted by Myra Grozinger (Member # 327) on :
Rosemary, I have not been on the board in a day or so - just found your post.
I am glad to read how you've been, and some of what happened. Thank you for taking the time and telling about it, I understand fully how much easier it is to bare your soul in the night.
I knew you were in Switzerland, and in other parts of Old Europe. Looks like you also are good in German. Gemuese und Weib are not exactly tourist words LOL.
I am especially glad you are in touch with what you yourself allowed to happen with the eating disorders, and that you fought your way back and are getting it under control - now that you have a better understanding.
I'm thrilled how well you did with the shooting and how close you came to winning!!
You will always, I feel certain, have a special place on this board and in all our hearts. We actually suffered with you, and Pierre, and Lat and Mom. Talk on. (Weiter schreiben......) We love you.
Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
I wish I could get Dad to come back here, Myra. There are so many peoplehe really likes a lot here, but two in particular. Rick and Si. It must be cuz they're all three old and crotchety, no? At least Dad and Si are. Rick is an old Teddy Bearchen! Something happened here and I don't know what it was. He won't talk about it at all, and I've asked him lots of times. SOMEone must know, but he just won't tell me. He can be SO, so stubborn! Oh, well. Maybe someday. And if I could just get him to read some of the really nice things the guys say about him here, he'd probably not be such a big stubborn lug! Oof! But I love him anyway. Lat just called and he and Lizbeth are in Coeur D'Alene now. He said that Bubba won the Super Cross last night and it didn't rain at all. But its raining in Lost Prairie.
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Posted by Jim Upchurch (Member # 209) on :
Hey nice lookin pooch! Bet she knows it too. I got a Rat Terrier not long ago, lots of personality in a small package! You didn't mention if they found the source that started all the health issues, do they have an idea?
Your German diet experience could have been much worse. Every now and then I am reminded of Greiseknokles(sp?), my mom is German and every now and then was in the mood. We weren't. They are sort of a small dumpling foating in a lightweight gear oil. I think the Gestappo developed them to break your will and make you talk. We would have said anything. Count your blessings.
Posted by Myra Grozinger (Member # 327) on :
Jim, my goodness. They are Griesskloesschen, or Griessnockerl if she was from a place closer to Austria. They are little dumplings made of a rice/grit type product not made here.
I brought some back home with me when I visited my mother in Germany in November, made a broth of stock and spices, and served them to guests.
Yummmm. Yummmm.
Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Rotkohl mit Kümmel u. Gruppe Bratwurst (nicht fein und nicht für Amis! Hasenpfeffer Sauerbraten Spaetzle Semmelauflauf mit Spargel (Yum!) Schwartzbrotsuppe Linsensuppe Sauerkrautpastete Krautwickel
These are just a few of the thing Mom makes regularly. If you think you don't like Sauerkraut, listen to this.
Sauerkraut cooked in a pot with Caraway seeds for 4 hours on simmer. In a large, deep casserole dish, put a 1/4" layer of Sauerkraut, then a 1/4" layer of mashed potatoes, then sprinkle sourdough breadcrumbs that have been browned in a frying pan over the surface of the potatoes. Repeat the layers 4 times or until its at the top of the casserole dish. Sprinle a layer of aged cheddar on top and put it in the oven under the broiler till its all brown and crusty on top. Take a big spoon and find a quiet corner and eat it till you're sick, no? Yum!! You'll never say you hate Sauerkraut again!
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Oops! I forgot to add that the longer you cook Sauerkraut the milder it becomes.
[ April 17, 2005, 09:41 PM: Message edited by: Rosemary ]
Posted by Myra Grozinger (Member # 327) on :
Girl..... looks like you are beating your eating disorders.
I am salivating from your descriptions, and I hope and pray one day I will meet you and we will have a great dinner together.
Actually. Getting real now. I have wanted a grandmother with her own airplane, but that was not a reality in my life. She could fly you here, and I promise you we would have a fine time and I would cook for you and entertain you and would do a job of "aufpaeppeln" (bolstering your physical body) away from home that would be worthy of consideration.
This is not empty words. I would and could do that. It simply means there is an alternative for you, to have a little vacation....
So -
Posted by Jim Upchurch (Member # 209) on :
Yes Myra, Greissknuckles musta been it. since my German is quite rusty I used the translate feature on google and found:
So there you have it, heavy on the butter and double up on the grease. Vot could go wrong?
p.s. did the guests ever come back?
Rosemary, I do like them Spaetzles, especially with brown gravy. My favorite pigout meal is roast beast with Knoedles. I buy the Knorr box and make four big dumplings. They go down too quick and easy! Nothing like German chow to put a little weight on ya.
Posted by Myra Grozinger (Member # 327) on :
you are very funny, while being uninformed.
Gries and grease are not the same, way far removed from each other...
Can we talk?.....
And yes, my guests can't wait to be invited again.
Posted by Donna in BC (Member # 130) on :
Welcome back Rosemary! I'm SO glad to have you back as a regular poster! I've missed hearing from you and about your stories with your family. You sound wonderful. Keep it up! Posted by Deb Fowler (Member # 1039) on :
Rosemary, Thanks also for sharing your ups and downs and intimate life with all of us. Your strength and courage and upbeat personality are a symbol of what you and your family stand for. You're really favorites of everyone here. Please know that your dad is also missed here, but everything in time. Keep your chin up. ps. I wrote you an email:)
Posted by Neil D. Butler (Member # 661) on :
I loved reading you're story Rosemary, And Saying "Welcome Back" means so much more.
Posted by Rosemary (Member # 1926) on :
Good morning! This is so uch fun being able to post again. Thank you, Donna! Your picture is beautiful! But where is your little one? Not so little anymore, no? I miss seeing his picture. My Grandmother. Oof! Where do I start? She's an extremely elegant lady who was Safeway Incorporated's first female district manager. I was named after her. My Grandfatehr died maybe 50 years ago, and Oma met Herbert A. Lewis about 45 years ago. They were married 5 years later. He's the only Grandpa on Dad's side that I've ever known, and I loved him. H.A.Lewis was the man who started Allied Van Lines in the 40s. He went on to found Riggers and Erectors, the world's largest maker of desalination and petrochemical (?) plants. He has them in places like Dubai and Jiddah in Saudia Arabia and in the Virgin Islands and lots of other places too, but I can't remember what Oma told me. Oma has money, no? But the story I want to tell is how Gandpa actually got started. I just LOVE this!
Grandpa got out of the service in maybe 1945? He may have even fought with my first Grandpa! I mean against him. ANYway, he had saved his money in the service and bought a wrecking ball and a dumptruck. A friend of his told him about a Lady that was taking bids to have her home removed cuz she was leaving the US for Belgium and not coming back, but he found out that the last day for bids was THAT DAY! He really needed the job badly, so he went right to the house itself. An elderly Lady answered the door and he told her that he really needed to be able to bid for her job but was too late to mail a bid. She asked him to come inside and if he drank tea. He said yes, and she went to make tea while he looked around the room. It was a huge Victorian mansion, and extremely well furnished. When she came back she asked him about himself and his family history. She told him that her husband had died 3 years ago and her three children were spoiled and already fighting over her estate. She wanted the house taken right to the ground and nothing left at all. She had bought a place in Belgium and she was not going to return to the US. Then she asked how much money he had. He told her he had his equipment and a small bank account. She insisted on knowing how much, so he told her he had $13,200.00 in the bank. She told him that she had enjoyed talking with him and hearing about his family and service, and if he would give her a check for every penny he had in the bank she would accept his bid without even looking at it. He only had to promise that everything in the house would be sold off or destroyed within one month. Grandpa mad his first million dollars by selling off all of the furnishings, gingerbread and gargoyle eaves, carved cork wallcoverings, exotic carpeting, French furniture, antique crystal, silver and just LOADS of stuff from that huge home. He sold everything that he could salvage. Grandpa and the Lady sent letters to each other for seven years until she died in Belgium. He bought his first fleet of trucks three months after the house was destroyed. Those trucks were the beginning of Allied Van Lines, and then Grandpa sold lots of franchises all over the US. His original company has a different name now, but I cn't remember what it is. I'll ask Oma next time I talk to her. If you're in Florida you'll recognize it. If you're into racehorses you'll recognize Grandpa's line of horses. Brandy B. Ryker is the only Appaloosa racehorse to with all 5 Diamond Medallions in US history. That's Grandpa's Stallion! Cool, no? Grandpa died of cancer and asbestos poisioning two years ago. He had wanted to see the GPI Mural Carving finished before he died, but Dad and Lat didn't have it done till 3 weeks after his death. That's why there's a dedication plaque to him on the carving. I miss my Grandpa.
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Posted by Myra Grozinger (Member # 327) on :
I am speechless. Thanks Rosemary for the inspirational story filled with love and pride.
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) that had ever outshot him in even a single group. So I was happy enough, and they were all so very kind to me.![[Big Grin]](biggrin.gif)
If you can stand me that is. 
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Oh, well. Maybe someday. And if I could just get him to read some of the really nice things the guys say about him here, he'd probably not be such a big stubborn lug! Oof! But I love him anyway. ![[Frown]](frown.gif)